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I am pregnant with baby #2. 14 weeks along. I guess I will be back after this baby arrive hopefully safe and full term. For now…… suck it preeclampsia!!

I’m doing it! I’ve lost 9 pounds! YAY! I am 3 pounds away from my mini goal. My next mini goal will be 165 and then we will be trying for baby number 2. :)  I’m nervous and excited all at the same time. Not to mention all my other emotions! It is so hard to risk trying again when there are no guarantees. But there are no guarantees in life. In one week I have lost…. 1 1/2inches off my braline, 1/2 inch off my waist, and 1 inch off my thigh. I am ready to start losing from my hips. I know this is the last place to go. UGH! I’m staying strong with my diet and exercise. I dont’ freak if I miss a day or eat something that I probably shouldn’t. I just move on. If I want a sugar cookie I eat it. Instead of craving it for weeks and then when I give in I gorge. So for me.. I just watch my calories and if I want something I eat it. In proportion of course! Good luck ladies! Hopefully I’ll be writing a new blog soon about getting close to my next mini goal and trying to concieve!

I haven’t been on forever. I’ve been doing horribly. I get sad.. and then I eat. It’s disgusting. But I can’t help it. I can even think in my mind I shouldn’t be eating but I’m sad and lonely and I do. :(  The really sad thing is.. I have an appointment this month with the dr to think about trying to get pg again. I really wanted to lose some weight before then. I still have 20 days before the appt. I just wish I had the strength, the will. I want to so bad so why can’t I just DO IT!!??? It’s so frustrating.  I don’t know what else to say. I’m ashamed of myself.

Lets just dive right in.. I am 22 years old. I am married to a wonderful man, his name is Kent. I do have one daughter who is an angel in Heaven. She was born Sept. 2007.  I did lose all of my “baby weight” which was only 20 pounds but I have gained 10lbs back. I have struggled with  my weight for the past 4 years. I started walking outside April 13th 2008. I have not missed a day yet. One day it was too windy to walk outside but I did walk on the treadmill. Right now I am just watching what I eat. No real diet. Trying to eat less and healthier. I have lost 1lb so far. I’m sure its water weight but it feels good anyhow. My husband and I would like to try for another baby in August but I really want to lose a significant amount of weight before then.  I  need to find my “new” self as an angel mom and I believe weight loss will greatly affect that. Life is hard. But I will push on. I have to do this for me and for Addison (my angel)